My Brain

Wed, 30 Aug 2006 04:42:19 GMT

The times I have had and the friends I have made over the past few years leaves me speachless. You are all truly spectacular in your own way and you should never doubt yourselves or change in any way, except to grow! You have made my time here worthwhile and i know that no matter what 1..5...10..or 50 years down the road i will be able to turn to you for love. Cheers to moving forward and finding better things :)

Youre like that

Thu, 17 Nov 2005 04:26:37 GMT

Like a petal
Plucked by a child
I’m no longer crazy
No longer wild

Like the ocean
So great and vast
You made me new
And took away my past

You’re everyone and everywhere
And all I can do is smile
I’ll love you forever this I swear
Because to you I’m worthwhile

Because you’re like that

Like the leaves
Blowing in the wind
Time with you is great
A perfect sin

Like my life
Such a crazy mess
I’ll give you all of me
And nothing less

You’re like everything I cant explain
Its like with you it’s meant to be
With you I feel no pain
And finally because of you I can see
Minutes into hours
Hours into years
And now springtime showers
Take the pace of my tears

You’re everyone and everywhere
And all I can do is smile
I’ll love you forever this I swear
Because to you I’m worthwhile

Because you’re like that

Like the sun
So bright in the sky
I’ll never question it
No I’ll never ask why

Like the Earth
You’re my best friend
Our love is eternal
It’ll ever end

Chorus x2

Yeah, you’re like that

Wed, 16 Nov 2005 21:10:59 GMT

There’s a young girl
Whose name I wont say
She’s a tiny pearl
In the world today

You knew her well
You sick freak
He said “don’t you tell”
And now she’s so weak

Chorus:
To you its just a memory but for her it lives on
In your sick little world she was just a pawn
You live your life but she’ll never forget
That time in her life when she was in your net

Because of you
She’s still in pain
She never grew
Standing out in the rain

You were there
And then you were gone
She was so scared
Does that please you, turn you on?

Someday you will see
The pain you caused her
And then you’ll plea
For it to be a blur

Chorus

She’s looking back
Into her heart
Everything was black
All from the start

So don’t cry
My little girl
Just say goodbye
You little pearl

Chorus

Your roots go deep
Just like a tree
Don’t you see?
The girl was me.

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 20:14:14 GMT

Devil in disguise

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 05:27:09 GMT

She was there
For so long
It wasn’t fair
You were so strong

And now it’s me
Holding you tight
We both agree
It feels so right

CHORUS
I see the pain she put you through
Its there in you eyes
And all I can do is hold you
Get rid of that devil in disguise

You’re broken inside
It makes you stressed
You lost your pride
So everything’s a test

I’m here for good
This I swear
I’d heal you if I could
We make a good pair

CHORUS

So now its time
To say goodbye
The wall we’ll climb
The one that goes so high

I’ll help you overcome it
That fear in your heart
Please just don’t quit
And we’ll have a brand new start

CHORUS

She was there
For so long
It wasn’t fair
You were so strong

Now it’s my turn
I have no knife
My love won’t burn
I’m yours for life

Hopelessly Addicted- not done ???

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 02:58:25 GMT

I felt you inside me
Killing me from the inside out
I felt you control me
Filling me with self doubt

I couldn’t survive
Without another hit
Its like I would thrive
With no chance to quit

CHORUS
I have myself to blame
For letting you stay
You put me through so much shame
But still I was always
Hopelessly addicted

Everyday I wanted more
And you always shut me down
You treated me like your whore
And just watched as I drowned

I couldn’t work without you there
I never wanted to be me
I lost myself- its not fair
And you would never hear my plea

Repeat chorus

You left
And now im fine

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 02:53:21 GMT

When your near

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 02:52:55 GMT

He’s the reason
That I cry myself to sleep
He’s the reason
Truth and reason I still seek
He’s the reason
I can’t trust myself
He’s the reason
I can’t trust anyone else

But when I’m with you
Everything’s all right
And when you’re near
I just want to be held tight

He’s the reason
I wasted so much time
He’s the reason
I crossed the line
He’s the reason
I’m writing this song
He’s the reason
I was a mess for so long

But when I’m with you
Everything’s just right
And when you’re near
I feel safe at night

For so long
Misery was my best friend
For so long, I cried
I thought my life was at its end

But when I’m with you
Everything’s all right
And when you’re near
I just want to be held tight

Hey girl -missing one verse

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 02:52:40 GMT

Hey girl, hopeful for tomorrow
You lost yourself in those big blue eyes
Hey girl, smoking away your sorrow
So down you wont even try
Hey girl, ignoring all your problems
Or just too busy holding them in
Hey girl, stop pushing away your life
Cut your wrists so much your bloods running thin

I can’t feel that pain again

Look past the pain
Cast everything away
He’s not coming back
Keep telling yourself that

Oh child, sparkle in your eye
So young your hearts as big as the sky
Oh child, life so innocent and fresh
Just wait until you reach your first test
Small child, I wish you could be held
Because I know your future, and I just cant see
Oh child, why can’t you just see things will never be perfect, just ask me

I can’t feel that pain again

Look past the pain
Cast everything away
He’s not coming back
Keep telling yourself that

Unfinished

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 02:52:14 GMT

All the things left unsaid
Kill me slowly from the inside out
When it’s dark and I’m in my bed
Those things inside I want to scream and shout

When I’m along in my room
All I want is you
Please don’t walk away
I was in this to stay

Why cant you just see how good we were
Instead you were so fucking blind
The things you said to me in a whisper
Turned out to be lies, of the worst kind

Unfinished

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 02:51:52 GMT

He left when I was just eight
Because of some kind of messed up thing
Had so many tears I couldn't see straight
Trying so hard not to feel the sting

The lies, the anger, the secrets and the pain
Stayed with me all those years
And while I was standing alone in the rain
No one was there to notice a young girls’ tears

Why can't things go back to the way there were before?

Sometimes

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 02:49:48 GMT

Sometimes I know where I’m going
Sometimes I don’t
Sometimes I say what I’m feeling
Sometimes I wont

Sometimes I’m levelheaded
Sometimes I’m a mess
Sometimes I’m so calm
Sometimes I’m stressed

CHORUS
I’m a million contradictions
Stabbing through myself like a knife
But if you can stand me for a second
I’m yours for life

Sometimes I’m unbelievably happy
Sometimes I cry
Sometimes I’m stuck on the ground
Sometimes I fly

Sometimes I’m perfect
Sometimes I’m mean
Sometimes I feel like a witch
Sometimes I feel like a queen

Repeat chorus

Sometimes you mean the world to me
Sometimes you make me mad
Sometimes you’re the perfect guy
Sometimes you’re just like my dad

Sometimes you don’t know what you want
Sometimes you prove that you do
Sometimes everything we do feels old
Sometimes it’s all so new

I can’t tell my future
But I know what I want
Cant we just make up our minds
Or are you just gonna taunt

Repeat chorus

Sometimes I know where I’m going
But I’m always going there with you
Sometimes I say what I’m feeling
But I know your always feeling it too

Free

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 02:48:58 GMT

When I’m stuck
In my dreams
I’m in a muck
It’s so extreme
When I’m alone (when I’m alone)

You come through
I see your eyes
I love you
And I could die
I’m not alone (I should have known)

CHORUS
Cause baby you’re my heart
And I knew from the start
That you’re all I need
I was broken before I met you
But now I’m free

I would stroll
Through the days
And I’m whole
I’m in a daze
When I’m here beside you (here beside you)

Can’t you stay
Here with me
We’ll spend the all day
Filled with glee
When I’m here beside you (always beside you)

Repeat chorus

When your near its so clear
Some kind of crazy connection here
I know you feel it too

When I let you in
Things go so slow
You just grin
Because you know

Repeat chorus

You set me free….

Darkness

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 02:47:52 GMT

It’s so dark outside
So dark that I cant see
But when I look closer
I see the darkness is in me

It only happens when I’m by myself
When I have the time to think
So many tears want to fall
I’m afraid I might sink

Don’t know where I’m going
And that makes me feel so small
I’m so glad I found you
But will you be there when I fall
I know you’ll be there when I fall

Most of the time I wear a mask
Just so no one gets in
And even though I try so hard
I always let the darkness win

Dreams where I’m happy
And shining like the sun
Make me feel like I need to change
And I don’t want to run

Don’t know where I’m going
And that makes me feel so small
I’m so glad I found you
But will you be there when I fall
I know you’ll be there when I fall

From the dark I see the light
From the dark it seems so bright
From the dark I reach to you
And in the dark you reach for me too

Don’t know where I’m going
And that makes me feel so small
I’m so glad I found you
But will you be there when I fall
I know you’ll be there when I fall

I’m ready now
Even though I’m scared
I’m ready now
All because you cared